I Want to Die but I Want to Eat Tteokbokki

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Baek Sehee sits across from her psychiatrist and tries to explain what's wrong. She is not in crisis — she functions, she works, she dates — but a low, persistent grey has settled over everything, and she cannot make it lift. This book is built from the transcripts of those sessions: twelve weeks of therapy for dysthymia, a form of chronic, low-grade depression that is easy to dismiss because it doesn't look dramatic enough to take seriously. Between the transcripts, Baek reflects on self-esteem, relationships, and the exhausting performance of being fine. The international bestseller's power lies in its refusal to offer easy comfort — instead presenting the repetitive, humbling, genuinely difficult work of learning to understand your own mind. A book that names the thing millions of people feel but can't articulate — the depression that doesn't look like depression, and is no less real for it.